It's been a LONG time since I updated this blog. I'm a slacker, but I really do have good reasons!
The last few weeks have made me realize that I have so much to be grateful for, that I should be able to write a list of things every day! I promise to do better and get back to daily updates.
The last week has brought a TON of fear back into my life. Not only over this pregnancy, but also over some history that has come back and reared its ugly head. Because of all of this, some simple things that I wouldn't normally think of have come to the front of my mind.
I am not only grateful that I have a home to live in that I don't have to worry about, but this home is SAFE for me and my children. Not only is it safe in a sense that it keeps the rain and wind out, but it also keeps those people that are a threat to us out as well. I can come into my home and feel totally safe and secure here.
A story on the earthquake in Haiti ripped my heart out the other day. A woman, about my age, had to listen to her 20 month old cry, as he was buried under rubble for almost 5 days. She could do nothing to help him, and just had to listen to him cry. I am grateful that I live in Arizona, where not only is my house structurally sound, but we don't have any major weather issues! We don't have earthquakes, or hurricanes, or tornadoes! Yea, it's hotter than hell in the summer, but I'd gladly sweat for a few months instead of listening to my child cry while trapped and I can't help him!
I am grateful for an absolutely amazing bishopric and stake president! Bishop Urry and President Clegg and pulled me through some seriously tough stuff in the last few years. I am grateful that the Lord saw it fit to make these men my priesthood leaders, and that they were worthy to accept the callings (and challenges)! I am not looking forward to the day Bishop Urry gets released. He's not only an amazing bishop but a good friend as well.
I'm grateful the Lord blessed me with the gift of music. I have such a connection to all types of music, and it's through me performing, that I can share my testimony best. I'm also grateful that I can share that talent with others. Every year I play for a retirement community in the East Valley, and the love those people show me, and the appreciation they show me for sharing my talent, always makes me feel warm and fuzzy! On the worst days of my life, I can bust out my flute and just sit down and play hymns and instantly feel better. For me, it's the best outlet for all of my mixed up emotions!
And, the last thing I'm grateful for today, is my Savior. I grew up in the Church, but didn't really gain my own firm testimony until after I married Molt. When the abuse started, the only place I could go was to my Savior. I hid so much of that abuse from everybody, even my parents, but I could always take my heavy heart to my Savior and He would comfort me. In the years since my divorce, He has pulled me through some pretty tough times, and taught me a lot about myself. I am grateful that He is ever mindful of me, my trials, what my children might need, and He always provides for us.
Love You Always
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